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This fictional account contains adult language and themes. If such language and themes offend you, please do not read farther. Copyright 1999 by SSTORYMAN. All rights reserved. Permission is granted to reproduce this story in any form and for any purpose as long as this notice is reproduced and no financial remuneration is received, directly or indirectly, by the person reproducing it. LOSING AND WINNING 4. Like Mother, Like Daughter. Kate pulled up in front of the house. It was past seven. She was late, as usual. She'd stopped at Alyssa's after work. It was only supposed to be for a minute. But they went for a drive so Alyssa could have a quick smoke. One cigarette turned into two, and two into three. Before Kate knew it, she was an hour late for dinner. Her dad's car wasn't in the garage. That wasn't unusual. He rarely came home for dinner anymore. But her mom would be mad. She should've called and said she'd be late. But she forgot. Damn! "Hi, Mom," Kate called as she came in. "Sorry I'm late." She waited. No response. She heard a noise from the family room. "I'm on the back porch, Kate," came the reply. "I'll be inside in a minute." Kate frowned. Her mom rarely sat on the back porch or the deck behind the porch. It was her dad's favorite spot, but her mom almost never went out there. Odd, she thought. Lynne came inside. She wore a cute sleeveless powder blue sun dress. Her hair was pulled back. She looked like the well-to-do suburban housewife. She also looked flustered. "How are you, sweetie?" she greeted Kate. It sounded almost too nonchalant. "Fine, Mom," Kate replied, but with an edge. She waited for the scolding. It didn't come. Instead, Lynne began heating up dinner. "Mom," Kate interrupted. "Are you okay?" Lynne looked even more dazed. "Yeah," she said slowly. "Why do you ask?" "I thought you'd yell at me for being late. You always do. That's all." Lynne released an audible sigh and smiled. "You're a big girl. I get on your case too much about being on time. It's okay. I'm trying to go with the flow. You know?" "I guess," Kate frowned. Cognizant of the smoky smell on her clothes, she decided to change before dinner. "I'm going to run upstairs and change," she announced. Kate shortly returned in a new outfit. The two ate quietly. They rarely talked much, and today was no exception. Her mother seemed edgy, but Kate decided not to ask what was wrong. After all, she decided, I don't want Mom asking me any questions, either. After they finished dinner, Lynne still seemed preoccupied. "I'm picking up Alyssa," Kate announced as she cleared the dishes. "We're going out for coffee. If that's okay." Lynne smiled. "Oh, that's fine, dear," she said absent-mindedly. "Enjoy yourselves." She just stared out the window at the rapidly darkening sky. Kate was really baffled now. Her mom always complained when she went out on school nights. Something was distracting her. But what? She decided not to question her good fortune. She and Alyssa could smoke for several hours. "I'll be home by eleven," she announced. "Have a good time, sweetie," came the half-hearted reply. As soon as Kate left, Lynne quietly walked to the front of the house. From a dark room, she watched her daughter's car pull away from the curb and disappear down the street. "Finally," she sighed. "I thought she'd never leave!" It was only three hours since her last cigarette, but Lynne already wanted another one. It was strange how fast she'd become accustomed to nicotine's pleasures. She walked out the back door to the screen porch, where she'd hidden her newly purchased cigarettes. With the porch screens open, no one would know she'd been smoking. Hidden by the twilight, Lynne retrieved a new pack Salem Lights 100's from under the couch, together with a newly purchased glass ashtray. From her sundress pocket she revealed a new disposable lighter. With trembling fingers she opened the pack. She removed a long, white Salem. Before firing the lighter, she sniffed it. The cigarette smelled minty, clean and fresh. She sighed with anticipation. She wanted to smoke it! Lynne was nervous, but there was no chance Kate would return. Lynne put the cigarette between her lips. She still wasn't sure how this happened. As recently as this morning, the idea of smoking was only a fantasy, something to be considered solely for Tom's benefit. Now she wanted to taste smoke for its own sake. She wanted to breathe it in, feel it tingle her throat and fill her lungs. She wanted to it. In fact, the feeling of anticipation had grown to almost a need. Lynne flipped her long, auburn hair over her shoulders. With the cigarette dangling from her lips, she clicked the lighter. She eagerly drew on the cigarette as the flame touched its tip, igniting it instantly. As she pulled, she felt her mouth fill with smoke. She breathed in. Her lungs welcomed the blue-gray substance cascading down her windpipe. Yes! She was finally smoking again. And it felt good! The light was dim, and the cherry end of her cigarette became her focal point for the next few minutes. With each puff she watched the Salem's tip grow bright red, then soften as she removed the cigarette from her mouth and inhaled. Her exhales were barely visible in the night air, but she felt the smoke flowing from her lips. She loved the feeling! She was disappointed when she finally crushed the cigarette in the ashtray. It was so delicious! She considered dumping the ashtray in the trash, but decided against it. Neither Tom nor Kate would be home for hours. She'd have time for another cigarette later. For a moment, she was tempted to smoke again immediately. She decided to wait, though she wasn't sure why. She went in and turned on the TV. While mindlessly flipping through channels, a movie on HBO caught her eye. The thing that grabbed her attention was the fact that the characters were all smoking. She watched, fascinated. They talked and laughed and smoked together. Smoking seemed to be part of the fabric sustaining their relationships. Based on her own limited experience, she knew that smoking with Stacie made their time together more of an event, too. As she thought about this social dimension, her desire for another cigarette increased. Stacie said it took days, even weeks, to get addicted and develop real nicotine cravings. Well, Lynne mused, maybe this wasn't a true craving, but it was something. Whatever it was, she knew she'd be satisfied only when she smoked another cigarette. Well, what the hell? she thought with a wicked smile. There's no reason not to smoke again, is there? Of course not. She muted the TV and opened the back door. As soon as she stepped outside, she started to shiver. The evening air was cool, and she still wore only a skimpy sundress. She decided to get a jacket to put over her shoulders. She marched to the coat closet in the front hall and reached for her navy light jacket. As she pulled it from its hanger, she inadvertently hooked a second coat, causing it to fall. "Damn," she muttered, realizing she'd knocked her daughter's windbreaker to the floor. As she picked it up to return it to its hanger, something fell from its inside pocket and clanked to the tile floor. Lynne turned on the light to retrieve the lost object. It was ... a cigarette lighter! She was momentarily confused. Why did Kate have a lighter? Then she realized there was something else nestled inside the pocket. It was a rectangular object. She reached in and withdrew from Kate's windbreaker a half empty pack of Marlboro Lights 100's. Lynne's first reaction was anger. "Why, that little bitch," she exclaimed. "I don't believe this! She's been smoking behind our backs! God damn her! I'll ground her for the rest of her life!" She was fuming. "It must the influence of that Alyssa Rogers," she decided. A few weeks ago, Kate had mentioned in casual conversation that Alyssa smoked. Lynne looked at the pack of Marlboros. Kate must be smoking, too. The thought of her little baby girl smoking cigarettes was an unexpected shock. But Lynne's anger quickly subsided. She realized the incredible irony. God, Kate is smoking, she gasped. Smoking! She broke the silent tension with a laugh. "And so am I," she gleefully said aloud. "Let him who is without sin cast the first stone." Very carefully she returned the cigarettes and lighter to Kate's windbreaker. She put her own jacket over her shoulders and headed toward the porch. She saw the message light on the answering machine. She hadn't noticed it before. Well, she'd listen to the messages after she did something else. Something on the back porch. The movie played on the screen as she walked through the family room. The characters were still smoking. Lynne smiled. She opened the back door and prepared to join them. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Stacie sat at the bar running her long fingers through her blond hair. She was nervous as hell! She took a sip of her beer and reached into her purse. Then she stopped. She hadn't intended to smoke here. But now she was reconsidering. She glanced at her watch. He'd meet her at nine. It was ten till. "I'll have a quick one," she rationalized. "It won't hurt. If I hurry, I'll be done before he arrives." This permission made her feel better. "God, I _need_ a cigarette!" she told herself. "My nerves are fuckin' shot!" From her purse she retrieved a leather cigarette case. She smiled. It was burgundy, elegant, with gold trim. In college she always used a cigarette case. She and her roommate felt an expensive cigarette case was a key accessory. It meant you were a serious smoker! Last night she looked in vain for the one she used in college. Tonight, on her way home, she visited a leather goods store to buy a new one. She loved this one as soon as she saw it. The leather looked expensive. It was. She clicked it open and viewed its precious cargo, a fresh pack of Salem Lights 100's. They waited for her. She was ready to partake. Using her long nails, she removed a Salem, eagerly putting the long white cigarette between her waiting red lips. She clicked her lighter and watched the fire touch the tip. As she took a long drag, her cheeks caved inward. God, it was good, she thought. She pulled hard on the cigarette! Inhaling, she held the smoke inside her lungs as long as possible. Then she pursed her lips and exhaled an endless stream of smoke, immediately making the air hazy. Taking a second drag, she inhaled again. She felt better. It was strange how smoking calmed her down. "Stacie?" a voice called. "I didn't know you smoked." She turned. The clock on the wall said five till nine. He'd arrived early. Damn! Well, there was no hiding it. "Hi, Tom," Stacie smiled nervously. "Thanks for coming." "I didn't know you smoked," Tom repeated as he sat beside her, pointing at the cigarette between her fingers and the burgundy cigarette case on the counter. "When did this happen?" Before answering, Stacie took another drag. Tom watched carefully. He was almost staring. Maybe Lynne was right. Maybe smoking was a turn-on for him. "I was a smoker in college," she explained, pausing to exhale from the corner of her mouth. "I quit six years ago, but you see I started again." Straggling wisps of smoke continued to escape from her lips and nose. "It looks that way," Tom smiled, not unpleasantly. "Don't get me wrong. I'm not critical. I'm just surprised. What does Lynne think about it?" Stacie looked around. "Do you mind if we move to a table?" she asked. The bartender, a pretty redhead in her thirties, could hear every word. "No problem," he replied, standing up. "Let me get a beer first." He ordered a Miller Light, and followed Stacie to a table in a quiet corner of the bar. "I assume Lynne's giving you plenty of shit about this new, nasty habit of yours," Tom reiterated. "She's very anti-smoking, you know." "She was," Stacie corrected. "That's what I want to talk about. I'm concerned about you and Lynne. If she knew I was meeting you tonight, she'd kill me." Tom frowned. "What's the problem?" Stacie repeated the essential details of Lynne's story, explaining how she feared Tom would leave her for another woman who smoked. She didn't name Kim, but told him Lynne was desperate to save the marriage, and that Lynne would do anything to do that, including learning how to smoke. "Lynne begged me to help her," Stacie said, putting Lynne's intentions in the best light. "I thought I could help without getting hooked again." She shrugged. "Obviously, I was wrong," she smiled. "The important thing is, she loves you. She's trying smoking, to win you back. But I don't want her to get hooked on these damn things if it's in vain. You know?" Tom didn't answer. He stared silently at the smoke languidly curling from the tip of her menthol cigarette. "Don't misunderstand," she went on. "I'm not asking you to admit anything." She took one last drag and crushed it in the ashtray. "Your likes and dislikes are your own business. I don't know if you get off on women smoking. I don't care. I didn't intend to smoke tonight. I thought it might be ... I don't know ... awkward if you have a thing about smoking." She smiled. "I didn't want to confuse the issue, which is you and Lynne. But you showed up early, and you caught me! So much for my secret!" "I'm glad I caught you," Tom smiled. "I appreciate your concern. You and Lynne are good friends. I consider you a friend as well. We've done things with you and Bill socially. It's not like I don't know you, too." "That's why I felt we should talk," Stacie nodded. "I do consider you a friend." "I'm glad I saw you smoke," he repeated. He pulled a pack of gold Marlboro 100's from his jacket pocket. "Do you mind if I smoke, too?" Oh, my God," Stacie smiled involuntarily. "You do smoke! Lynne suspected as much." "Yeah, I've been smoking regularly about three months," Tom said, lighting a cigarette. From the way he handled himself, he was no novice. "I love to watch women smoke, and I finally decided to give in myself. I started smoking after Kim Kettering began working at my office. I bet you've heard about Kim, haven't you?" Stacie nodded. The smell of smoke ascending from Tom's cigarette was divine. It made her want another one, too. But she was afraid to say so. She kept quiet. "Kim smokes, and she looks so damn good doing it," Tom continued. "I started bumming cigarettes from her occasionally when we worked late during tax season. One thing led to another. Before long I was smoking all the time. I enjoy it. I admit that." He paused. "I do have a thing about women and smoking," he admitted. "Lynne was right. For years I tried to deny the attraction. I repressed my feelings and tried to ignore them. I realized that's dumb. This is part of who I am. I don't know why, and I don't care." He noticed Stacie staring at his cigarette. "If you want another one, too, don't be shy, Stacie. Go ahead!" "Thanks," she said breathlessly. "I could use another one." She opened her cigarette case and took another Salem. With her manicured nails, she put it in her mouth. Before she got her lighter, however, Tom offered the flame from his. "Thanks," she cooed, puffing hard on the now-burning cigarette. "God, I do love these fuckin' things! Suddenly, it seems like all I want to do is smoke!" "I understand," he smiled. "But tell me. Is Lynne really willing to try smoking?" "She's more than trying," Stacie smiled. Her cigarette was raised beside her face, with her wrist cocked and her long fingers curled. Smoke drifted between them. "We smoked together at work today. She had at least six cigarettes on breaks and over the lunch hour. It's amazing. She's really taken to smoking." She paused to manicure her cigarette in the ashtray. "I think she surprised herself. She likes it. She's a natural. If you like smoking women, Tom, you'll be impressed when you see Lynne smoking." "Oh, God," he sighed. "I can't believe she'd learn to smoke for me. But I'm not sure it'll be enough, Stacie." "What do you mean?" "Our marriage has been in trouble for a long time. Lynne's so goddamn analytical. We don't get along. I'd love to see her smoke, I really would. I suppose that sounds terrible. After all, who'd want to encourage someone to smoke? But maybe it'd loosen her up, stop her being wound so goddamn tight. I'm saying it's going to take more than her smoking to save the marriage. A lot more." He was nervous. He shifted in his seat. "Tonight I left a message on the machine at home. I was afraid to tell her in person. I did it the coward's way - by telephone. I told her I'm leaving. I rented a furnished apartment, one that companies use to house traveling executives. It's month to month. But I don't plan to go back home." He sighed. "Even if she's smoking." Stacie frowned. It was time to be direct. "Tom, are you fucking Kim Kettering?" Tom looked surprised, but then smiled. "Yes," he admitted. "I discovered something else. I have a real thing for blonds. Kim is blond. Lynne's auburn hair is pretty, but something about blonds really gets me going. Especially a beautiful blond who smokes." He stared at Stacie. "Bill's lucky, Stacie. You're gorgeous. Your blond hair is very sexy. You have a great body and a pretty face. And you smoke! Bill's got to be in heaven!" "Thank you," Stacie blushed. "But Bill isn't happy. We're breaking up." "Why?" Tom demanded. "What's the problem?" "My smoking," she sighed, twirling her cigarette in the ashtray. "He hates smoking. He said I had to choose, either cigarettes or him. So, I chose. I told him we're through." She took another drag. "I'm not changing," she went on. "I'm a smoker. This time I know. If he doesn't like Stacie Warden the smoker, he doesn't like Stacie Warden." Tears welled up in her eyes. "God, that is unbelievable. What an asshole!" Stacie took another extended pull on her cigarette, inhaled, and chained into a second long drag. Smoke poured from her nostrils as she puffed the second time. After she inhaled, she began to quietly cry. Smoke burst from her mouth and lips as the tears fell from her eyes. Tom pulled a handkerchief from his pocket. "Don't cry," he said reassuringly. "You'll be okay." But Stacie wept harder. He looked around. Their corner of the bar was almost empty. As far as he could see, no one was watching. "You'll be okay," he repeated. "If that asshole doesn't think you're fabulous, Stacie, he's a loser. You're better off without the bastard. Millions of men would love a chance with a beautiful, fun-loving woman like you." He leaned closer and put his arm around her. By now, she was racked with sobbing. Smoke from the cigarettes encircled Stacie's tearful face. Crying uncontrollably now, she literally fell into his arms. After a quick hit on his Marlboro, he embraced her. She returned the hug. Then something happened that no one planned. Tom gently kissed Stacie on the mouth. It was intended as comfort. But her response was strictly amorous. Maybe it was the wonderful smell of fresh smoke on his breath, or his unquestioning acceptance - indeed, affirmation - of her status as a hopelessly addicted smoker. For whatever reason, Stacie kissed back, softly at first, then harder. She nuzzled against him, kissing hungrily, passionately, pulling him toward her with her free hand, while with the other she held her cigarette away from his body. "Stacie, this is insane," Tom gasped as he pulled away. "We can't do this." She looked at him. She was no longer crying. Offering a meek smile, she took a long drag on her Salem. With a wicked look, she french-inhaled smoke into her nostrils. Aware of the impact she was having, she retained the smoke deep inside. "I know. I don't want to stop. God, it felt good when you held me! We're smoking, and that made it even better. I've never had a man who liked my smoking. Bill hates it. But you don't just put up with it." She paused to exhale. "You like it. You like to smoke as much as I do, and you enjoy watching me smoke." She stared at him. "Don't you?" "Yes," he admitted, taking a drag. "I love seeing a woman enjoy a cigarette." It was his turn to exhale. "And you're quite a woman, Stacie. You're blond, you're beautiful, and you smoke. But you're also my wife's best friend ...." She crushed hers in the ashtray. "I know. I'm sorry," she apologized. "I didn't mean to come on to you. I just get so desperate for companionship, for love." She smiled. "I mean, for sex," she added with a wink. "But I can't do this to Lynne." She put her burgundy cigarette case in her purse and stood up. "You're a good man, Tom Carlson. For your sake, I hope Kim Kettering is a good fuck." There was a hint of sarcasm in her voice. "But I hope you change your mind. Give Lynne a chance. She really loves you." "Thanks, Stacie," he smiled with sincerity. He, too, stood and gave a friendly, parting embrace. "I'll go back to my apartment and think about it. And don't worry. You'll find someone who loves you for who you are. You'll find a man worthy of you, who loves Stacie Warden, the smoker." "I hope so," she sighed as they walked to the door. "Because this time, I'm not quitting!" Neither of them noticed a blond female, with a large hat over her head, at a table across the room. Kim Kettering raised a cigarette to her lips and took a leisurely drag. "Well, if that doesn't beat all," she mumbled. "The bastard! He's cheating on me already. Well, fuck him!" By nature suspicious, Kim had overheard Tom on the phone arranging to meet someone at this bar at nine. She wondered what required him to leave her at the office alone. Now she knew. She couldn't hear the conversation, but the scene spoke for itself. He was going home with that blond! The only words she heard were Tom calling her name. Her name was Stacy Warden, was it? Well, damn him! She drew hard on her cigarette. She began composing a plan to take revenge. She wouldn't confront him. That would be too easy. She had another idea. She was sure it would play very nicely.... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It was almost eleven. Relaxing on the screen porch, Lynne felt mellow. She felt good. She knew why. It was 'cause she was smoking ... again. This was her fifth cigarette of the evening. It wasn't supposed to happen like this. It was almost bizarre. Most people don't try smoking and immediately get hooked. But for Lynne, tobacco had immediately captured her. She'd taken to smoking like a baby duck to water. In fact, all evening the only thing she thought about was smoking. She absolutely loved it. She loved how it made her feel; relaxed and yet stimulated, mellow and yet powerfully alive, calm and yet wonderfully excited. The thrill was almost sexual. Each time she raised a cigarette to her lips to partake of another dose of magnificent, flavorful smoke, the blessed agent that delivered luscious nicotine into her system, she virtually quivered with excitement. This strong and positive reaction to nicotine wasn't out of character. She reacted that way to any stimulant, and to medication, too. Alcohol affected her that way. A couple glasses of wine and she was completely giggly. Pain medicine was the same way. On two Advil she went completely numb. More than most people, her body reacted to pharmacological elements. Her body was now responding to nicotine. The pharmacological effect was sensational. She loved it. She heard the front door open. Crushing her cigarette in the ashtray, she glanced at her watch. It was five after eleven. She took a sip from her wine glass, which was the other reason she felt mellow. She smiled broadly. "That'd be Kate," she predicted, "and right on time." It was five minutes after her curfew. She'd intended to announce her smoking persona to Tom first. But he still wasn't home. That wasn't unusual. He often worked late. But the idea of telling him was still scary. What if he reacted badly? It might be easier to tell Kate. It'd be an opportunity to test the announcement before telling Tom. Based on what she found in Kate's jacket, she guessed it'd be well received by her daughter. Lynne took a deep breath and walked into the house, to welcome Kate home. "Hi, honey," she smiled sweetly. Kate was hanging her coat in the closet. The jacket she'd worn was the one without cigarettes, Lynne thought smugly. She wondered if Kate had been without a supply this evening. "Did you and Alyssa have a good time?" she asked graciously. "What did you do?" "Yeah, we had a good time," Kate smiled half-heartedly. Ignoring her mother's second question, she shrugged. "I'm beat. I'm going to bed, Mom." "Oh, please don't, honey," Lynne replied sweetly. "Come join me on the porch. Your father's not home. I'm just finishing a glass of wine. Sit and talk with me for a few minutes." Kate didn't consider the fact that her mother rarely drank, and never alone. "I'm not up to it, Mom," she complained. Actually, she was worried about the smell of smoke on her clothes and hair. She and Alyssa had been smoking. If she got too close to her mother, she might be found out. "I'm going to hit the hay." "Kate Carlson," Lynne said sharply. "Come sit with me on the porch!" She softened her tone and smiled. "I have something to show you. I think you'll like it." Despite her fear, Kate was intrigued. Curiosity got the better of her. The smell on her clothes wouldn't be noticeable in the outside air. "Okay," she agreed. "Just for a minute." They walked through the family room. Before opening the porch door, Lynne turned and smiled. "I wasn't sure how to say this," she began. "So I decided to show you. I hope you won't be upset." She winked. "I don't think you will be." Kate was perplexed by the strange introduction. Entering the screen porch, her nostrils were assaulted by an unmistakable aroma of stale cigarette smoke. There were screens on three sides, but the odor lingered in the still night air. Someone was smoking. It never occurred to her it was her mother. With no lights, the porch was shrouded in darkness. Lynne sat down. In the dim reflected light from the house, Kate saw several things on the table. One was a wine glass. In the dusk she couldn't make out the others. But what happened next amazed the sixteen year old. Her mother picked up a rectangular object and gave it a gentle shake. She removed a long cylinder and put it in her mouth. There was no mistaking the object protruding from her mother's lips. It was ... a cigarette! "Oh my God," Kate gasped. "Mom, what are you doing?" Lynne grinned. "I'm going to smoke," she sighed pleasantly, with the cigarette dangling. There was a soft click. A bright flame erupted, illuminating Lynne's face. Kate watched in astonishment. The flame hit the tip of the cigarette. Her mother was smoking! A second click followed, the lighter extinguished, and darkness returned. But the cherry red end of the cigarette shed sufficient light for Kate to see her mother take a long, initial drag. In one motion, Lynne took the cigarette between her fingers and pulled it from her mouth. She inhaled and showed her daughter a satisfied smile. Without a word, she exhaled a cloud of smoke into the still night air. Kate was still standing. In disbelief, she fell into a chair. "Holy Christ, Mom," she muttered. "I don't believe this!" Then she stopped talking. Did her mother know she'd been smoking? Maybe she was ridiculing her. Or perhaps it was some strange punishment. But why would her mom punish her by smoking herself? It made no sense. Kate was perplexed. "You look puzzled," Lynne smiled generously. "In fairness, I should explain what's happening." "That'd be nice," Kate said hesitantly. "You've always been so anti-smoking, Mom. I don't get it. What's going on?" Seeing her mother smoke, all of a sudden Kate desperately wanted one, too. But she couldn't admit it. She needed to find out what was going on. "What I'm about to say isn't easy, I'm afraid," Lynne began. She paused for another long hit on her cigarette, and tapped some ashes into the glass ashtray. She exhaled, and continued. "I've been worried about your father. He's been very cold recently. I'm losing him. In fact, I fear he's having an affair." As her words sunk in, she saw the distress on her daughter's face. But she took a breath and went on. "Years ago, your dad admitted he has a 'thing' about women smoking. Women who smoke are attractive to him. Sexually, I mean. To be blunt, it's a turn-on. He said it's no big deal, but lately I've been concerned about Kim Kettering. She smokes, you know. I think your dad is mesmerized by Kim and her smoking." Hidden by darkness, Kate's face turned white. "Really?" she mumbled. What was her mom saying? Was her dad fucking Kim? Oh, God! In her heart, she'd suspected. Was it true? "I was always against smoking. But I had no choice. I had to fight fire with fire, so to speak. I figured if I smoked, I could compete." Lynne took another drag, turned her head, and exhaled toward the light. "That's why I did it. Do you remember my friend Stacy from work? Well, Stacie used to smoke. I talked her into helping me. At first, she was reluctant. She said I had no idea what I was getting into. God, she was right! I intended to smoke just to please your father. But amazingly, I like smoking. I mean, I _really_ like it," she said with emphasis. "I can't seem to get enough of it," she added with a giggle. She paused for another long drag. "It's so strange," she continued whimsically, before stopping long enough to exhale upwards. "Smoking makes me feel _so_ good. But you already know about that. Don't you, Kate?" "What do you mean, Mom?" "Don't be coy. Tonight, when I came outside to smoke, it was chilly. I got this coat from the closet to put on my shoulders. In the process I accidentally knocked your jacket from its hanger. What do you think I found in the inside pocket of your windbreaker?" The jig was up. Kate wondered whatever happened to that spare pack. Now she knew. "Was it a pack of cigarettes?" she asked hesitantly. "Exactly," Lynne smiled triumphantly. She crushed her cigarette in the ashtray. "A pack of Marlboro Lights 100's, to be exact. You've been smoking, Kate Carlson. I should be upset, but I'm not. Actually, it's ironic. If I'd found those cigarettes last week, I'd have been furious. I'd have grounded you. It's that damn Alyssa's influence, isn't it?" Kate hesitated. "Yeah, the fact that Alyssa smokes had a lot to do with it," she admitted. "But it wasn't ...." "Never mind," Lynne interrupted. "The point is, I'm making an announcement here. I'm now officially a smoker. I didn't intend for it to happen. But it did. Smoking isn't good for me, and it certainly isn't good for you. But I don't care. I want to smoke anyway." She looked at Kate. "And I suppose you want to keep smoking, too, don't you?" Was Kate hearing what she thought she was hearing? This was better than she could've imagined. "Yeah, I'd like to," she smiled sheepishly, hoping her mother was about to give her approval. "I've only been smoking a little while, but I really like it. Yeah, I'm like you, Mom. I'd like to be able to smoke. If you and Dad let me, that is." "I'd be a hypocrite if I said you couldn't. As for your father, who the hell cares what he thinks? Here, I'll give you permission, right now. Get your cigarettes. Let's smoke together. Sort of a coming out party for both of us. Don't you think that'd be fun?" "Mom!" Kate objected. "I can't smoke with you, for God's sake. You're my mother!" "Relax," Lynne sighed. "It's okay. Jesus, Kate! Don't you think it was hard for me, to smoke in front of you? But now I want to see you smoke. C'mon on." Lynne stood up and grabbed her Salems, her lighter and the ashtray. She walked across the porch and opened the door to the family room. "Let's go inside," she urged. "There's no reason to hide in the dark any longer." As she followed her mother inside, Kate was dazed by the unexpected revelation. Shit! This was her mother who, after opposing smoking as long as Kate remembered, had just proudly proclaimed herself to be a smoker! If that wasn't weird enough, she wanted her to smoke with her. Kate was still too shocked to be happy. Lynne sat on the family room's overstuffed couch. "I left your cigarettes in your jacket," she explained with a smile, putting the ashtray on the coffee table. "Go get 'em!" Kate walked obediently to the closet. Sure enough, the half empty pack of Marlboro Lights 100's were still in her jacket pocket. She returned to the family room with them. Still stunned, she sat in the comfortable chair beside the couch. "Kate, we haven't gotten along very well the last couple years." Her voice sounded completely sincere. "Much of that has been my fault. I know." As she spoke, she retrieved a Salem from the pack on the table and placed it between her smiling lips. "Maybe this can be a new beginning for us. What do you say?" Kate nodded. She put a long white cigarette in her young mouth. Lynne smiled at this extraordinary sight. It was amazing! Her daughter suddenly resembled someone who was completely grown-up! She looked unusually mature, not a kid anymore. Without a doubt, it was that long cigarette, elegantly dangling from those pretty, young lips, that made all the difference. Lynne sighed, and an unusual confidence filled her breast. She knew this was the right thing to be doing with her sometimes rebellious teenager. Filled with satisfaction, Lynne happily flicked her lighter. As always, the smoke tasted so good to her. She immediately offered a light to her daughter. Kate eagerly leaned forward and caught the waiting flame. Kate's nervousness ended that moment, as soon as she tasted that wonderful, warm cigarette smoke filling her hungry mouth. It was heavenly! With the cigarette lit, she exhaled a small cloud of smoke from the corner of her mouth. Then she comfortably leaned back, ready for a luxurious, long opening drag. As she partook, she knew her pleasure would increase as soon as she was able to inhale the luscious smoke deep into her impatient lungs. Lynne watched Kate's cheeks cave in. This was no hesitant, uncertain smoker. No! Kate's initial pump displayed a veteran's confidence; self-assured, practiced, and hard. It lasted for what seemed like an eternity. Finally, with a quiet "whoosh," Kate opened her mouth and sucked the blue-gray smoke deep inside. Her young breasts eagerly elevated, permitting her lungs to fully accept the delectable bequest. A look of strange satisfaction broke across her face as the Marlboro's sweet, fragrant fumes impregnated her lungs. After a long pause, Kate turned and blew a jet stream of smoke up into the air. "Oh my God, that tastes so good!" she gasped. "Jesus, I was _so_ ready for a cigarette, Mom!" Smoke burst from her lips while she spoke. "Thanks, Mom. You're the best!" Lynne was dazzled. "Did Alyssa teach you to smoke like that? How did you do that? My God, Kate, you make me look like an amateur by comparison." Kate blushed. "Oh, Mom. It's easy. I just count silently to five while taking a drag. Then I count to five a second time while holding the smoke inside. It's a silly ritual, but it gets lots of smoke into my lungs. It also makes me look like an experienced smoker, doesn't it?" She giggled proudly. "And the best part is, it feels really good." Lynne was mesmerized. "Can I try it?" "Yeah, sure," Kate smiled with a satisfied shrug. "Go right ahead, Mom." Lynne put her cigarette in her mouth, sealed her lips around the filter, and sucked energetically. She drew long and hard, silently counting to five. It was the longest puff she'd ever taken during her brief career as a smoker. Finally, she removed the cigarette. Although Kate hadn't said to do so, Lynne consciously lifted her torso to expand her chest and let the smoke go as deep inside as possible. "That's great," Kate coached, seeing her mother's breasts elevate. "Now, count to five again. Let the smoke sit there for awhile before you exhale." Lynne did as instructed. While waiting, she experienced an overpowering sensation. Her lungs felt absolutely satiated. There was now more thick, rich smoke inside her body, and deeper inside, than ever before. It felt good! It was as if she could actually feel the nicotine entering her bloodstream. She smiled, and began exhaling a thin but plentiful river of smoke from her pursed lips. Then she stopped, breathed in again, and turned toward Kate. "Wow, that was awesome," she exclaimed, as shreds of smoke proceeded from her smiling lips. "Oh my God! This makes smoking so much better! God, it's fabulous!" She tapped some ashes in the ashtray. "My compliments to Alyssa. I suppose she learned this watching her mother smoke. I love it!" Without thinking, Kate corrected her. "Actually, it wasn't Alyssa. It was Kim who showed me. But it is really cool, isn't it?" Lynne stopped and stared. "Did you say Kim? Kim Kettering?" Kate was in the middle of another drag. With a panicked look, she quickly inhaled. "Oops," she gasped, holding the smoke inside. "Shit! I didn't mean to say that." She paused to prematurely release a cloud of smoke from her mouth. "I'm so sorry, Mom," she added. "Exactly who taught you to smoke? It wasn't Alyssa, was it?" Kate turned white. "No," she stammered. "It was Kim. Kim taught me." Anger mixed with curiosity. "Tell me about it," she said softly. "The whole story." Kate told her mother the entire tale, about how Kim took the initiative to get them together. She told her how Kim eagerly encouraged her to try smoking, bought cigarettes for her, and taught her to take long, hard drags and deep inhales. Lynne was stupefied. She didn't know what to say. So she asked a question. "God, Kate! Exactly what do you know about your dad's relationship with that bitch?" Kate shrugged. She didn't want to voice her suspicions. At least not yet. "What do you mean?" she asked nervously. "Is he sleeping with her?" Lynne asked bluntly. "I ... I don't think so," she stammered. "Why are you asking me?" "Because I figured you'd notice the signs. I told you about your father's fetish. For months I've been worried about that woman. I don't want to put you in the middle. But if I had to guess why he's so cold towards me, I'd guess he's sleeping with someone else." She squinted and looked at her daughter. "If I had to guess, I'd guess it's Kim." "God, I don't know, Mom," Kate sighed. She shook her head. "But you're right about one thing. Kim and Daddy are close. On Tuesday I asked Kim if she was in love with Dad. She said no." She paused. "That doesn't prove anything, does it?" "No," Lynne said smugly. "But don't you think it's an odd coincidence? Kim Kettering smokes; she gets your father to start smoking; and now she gets you to smoke, too." "Wait a minute," Kate objected. "Daddy doesn't smoke." Lynne offered a rueful smile. "Oh, yes he does! We sleep in the same bed. I know the aroma. He smells like smoke all the time. Your father's been smoking for several weeks, maybe longer. It began after Kim started working at his office. I'm willing to bet she got him started smoking, and then decided to make you her next victim." "But I don't get it. Why would Kim want to do that?" It was all becoming clear to Lynne. "Don't you get it?" she asked. "She wants to lure your father away from me. She knows that smoking turns him on, so she ...." "Oh, God!" Kate interrupted, as the light began to dawn. "I can't believe this! I feel so stupid!" Lynne nodded sympathetically. "Wait. Let me finish. Like I said, your father has this thing about women who smoke. He's watched women smoking as long as I've known him. But lately it's become more than a visual distraction. Kim Kettering made damn sure of that." "God," Kate moaned. "I didn't know. Maybe I should have figured it out. But I'm not sure I wanted to. Holy shit! That explains why Daddy lets Kim smoke at the office!" Realizing she'd used foul language, Kate waited for her mother's negative reaction. But none was forthcoming. She was relieved. Usually her mother scolded her for such talk. Maybe this _was_ a new beginning. She smiled and finished her thought. "Anyway, the way Kim explained it, Daddy was just being extra nice when he let her smoke." "I hate to say it, but there's more going on. A lot more. Don't get me wrong. I don't blame your father for his interest in women smoking. There's probably nothing he can do about it. It's just how he's wired. But Kim took advantage of it. Now she's out to convert you, too." "But why? Why would Kim care whether I smoked?" "Let's think about that," Lynne mused. "Why would Kim want _you_ hooked on cigarettes? Okay. How about this? She figures once you're hooked, the scenario would be complete. She knows how much your father loves you. He wouldn't leave if it meant leaving you, too. She probably figured if Daddy left me, you'd be torn. So Kim decided to make the decision easy. I bet Kim figured you'd choose to live with two smokers rather than with a non-smoker like me - assuming she gets your father to leave me. Daddy might leave me, but he'd never leave you. He loves you too much!" "But Daddy isn't leaving you," Kate protested. "Is he?" Lynne sighed. "I don't know. I hope not. But it would all fit. That may not be Kim's plot, but I think it's a pretty good analysis. I bet the next thing that happens will be your father announcing to me that he's moving out, and moving in with Kim. Maybe I'm paranoid, but I don't think so. Then your dad will ask who you want to live with. With him, where you can smoke? Or with me, where they assume you won't be allowed to smoke?" "Oh, God, Mom," Kate sighed. "It would explain everything. What are we going to do?" "I don't know," Lynne admitted. "None of it has happened yet. By smoking myself, however, I intend to throw a big wrench into Kim's little plan." She nervously stroked the plush quilting on the couch. "But first, I'd like another cigarette!" She smiled wryly at her daughter. "If you don't mind, that is." "Not at all," Kate eagerly agreed, as Lynne again reached for her Salems. All this analysis made Kate, too, feel quite stressed. Smoking another cigarette sounded wonderful to her, too. Without asking for permission, she decided to just join her mother in lighting up another one. "One good thing," she added, as she shook another Marlboro from her own pack. "If you're right about Kim's plan, then when Daddy comes home tonight he'll find things have changed, huh?" Kate put the cigarette between her lips. "Daddy can't be too upset if he finds us smoking together, can he?" "No, I think not," Lynne said with a twisted smile. She happily reached for her lighter. The two women, mother and daughter, lit up again. In silence they together took long, protracted inaugural hits. Lynne followed Kate's lead, holding her smoke deep inside her chest for a five count. Together they simultaneously released satisfied exhales. Cigarette smoke hung heavy in the family room air as they concurrently began large, second drags. As expected, the nicotine kick charmed them both. Suddenly, the phone rang, pulling them back to reality. "Jesus Christ!" Lynne muttered, in involuntary response to the abrupt noise. "Shit!" Smoke was flowing from her nostrils as she stood up to grab the phone. Kate couldn't help but stifle a smile. She couldn't remember her mother ever talking like that before. It seemed ... so nice. Maybe smoking was helping her mother loosen up a little bit. God knows she needs that, Kate thought. While walking to the phone, Lynne again noticed the message waiting light blinking on the answering machine. It said two messages were waiting. "I missed a couple calls on the back porch," she mumbled. Well, she'd pick up them up after answering this call. "Hello?" she said politely. Suddenly, she realized she still had her cigarette with her. It was reposed in her left hand as she talked into the receiver. But far from seeming peculiar, having a cigarette between her fingers was strangely comforting. She smiled at this realization. "Lynne?" asked a male voice. "Hi, this is me, Tom." "Oh, hi, Tom," she sighed cheerfully. She was glad to hear his voice. "Are you coming home tonight?" she asked innocently. He seemed surprised. "That's what I want to talk about. Didn't you hear the message I left on the machine?" "Uh, no," Lynne admitted. "I ... I haven't picked up any messages tonight. I've been busy." Again she gazed at the freshly lit cigarette burning in her fingers. Wisps of smoke from its tip danced lazily toward the ceiling. "Good! Don't listen to the message I left on the answering machine earlier," Tom said hastily. "I left it for you before ... before I talked to Stacie tonight." "You talked with Stacie? Tonight?" She was flabbergasted. She hadn't planned on Stacie talking to Tom. Damn her! She'd give her hell! Without thinking, she reflexively took a hit on her cigarette and quickly inhaled, pulling the smoke deep into her waiting lungs. "Uh, yeah," Tom replied slowly. He recognized that sound. Unless he was mistaken, Lynne was smoking - right now, right there, in their kitchen. The realization made his cock harden. He waited in vain for the telltale sound of an exhale. Catching herself, however, Lynne had carefully exhaled away from the receiver. "So," he went on, gathering composure. "Stacie told me you're smoking now. I think that's great," he added, trying to sound genuinely supportive. "You do?" Lynne replied eagerly. Wisps of smoke drifted from her lips into the phone. She smiled at the discharge escaping from deep within. "Well, I did it for you, you know, Tom." "That's what Stacie said," he replied. "And I really appreciate it. I'd like to come home and see it," he began. "I mean ...." "I know exactly what you mean, honey," Lynne purred. She purposely made her tone seductive. Assured of a positive response from her husband, she took another long drag, this time making sure the sound carried over the telephone. She audibly made a "whoosh" as she inhaled. "I'd love you to come home and watch me smoke," she hummed happily into the phone. She purposely exhaled a burst of smoke directly into the receiver. That sound was unmistakable! Tom knew what she was doing. It made him hot. "I'll be there right away," he promised. "I'll see you real soon!" "Bye, bye," Lynne sighed. She smiled as she hung up. Twin streams of smoke trickled from her nostrils. She turned and gazed at her amazed daughter. "I think I just fucked up Kim's devilish little plan," Lynne said sweetly. She reached over with her left hand, the one still holding her cigarette, and gently pushed the "play" button on the answering machine. "I'd say your father is real glad that I'm smoking," she sighed. "Real glad." "Puh-leeze, Mom," protested Kate in mock horror. "You're grossing me out." She watched her mother take another long, satisfied drag from her rapidly shrinking cigarette. "And I don't think I've ever heard you use the word 'fuck' before, Mom," Kate added. "What's up?" "I dunno," Lynne grinned. A second time, twin streams of smoke exited her nose. "Maybe I'm being a little bit of a bad girl, now that I'm smoking like this . It's just that smoking makes me feel ... I don't know ... sort of evil or something." Her smile reached from ear to ear. "Whatever," Kate smiled. Her mom seemed loose indeed. It was nice. Their thoughts were interrupted by the answering machine. "First message," it droned. The next thing the women heard was Tom's voice. "Lynne, I have something to tell you," the message began. "I'm moving out. I'm seeing someone else. I'm sorry to tell you this way. But I want you to get over being mad before we talk face to face. I got a little furnished apartment at Corporate Village, the place on Wilson Road where business executives stay. I'll call you later. It's not your fault. I just need some space. I have to move on." There was a pause. "Sorry." Lynne was simultaneously vindicated and stricken. "What did I say?" she asked. "Did I predict this, or what?" She took a quick hit on her cigarette. "Sounds like I started smoking just in time," she said with satisfaction. Before Kate could respond to her mother's statement, the answering machine continued. "Thursday, six thirty seven, p.m.," it said mechanically. "Next message." The next message surprised both of them. The voice was unmistakable. It was Kim Kettering. She sounded irritated. "Lynne, this Kim Kettering. From Tom's office? God, I'm not sure why I'm doing this. I guess it's because I'm so _pissed_ at your fuckin' husband! By now you know that he's leaving you, to move in with me. Tom said he left you a message. Nice, huh? I should be calling to gloat, and say, hey, sorry baby, you lost. But I'm not. Tonight I followed the bastard to a bar. He met some blond bimbo named Stacie. The two of them were hugging and kissing all over the place! Well, fuck him! I'll be damned if I'll let him cheat on me! I'm dumping him, Lynne, back into your hands. Sorry for the bad news, babe. He's two-timing both of us. I figured by ratting on him to you, I'd get double revenge. I'll let you deal with him. I hope you hurt him real good!" There was a pause. Kate and Lynne stared at each other. Their faces reflected disbelief. The message continued. "Oh, one more thing. I hate being the bearer of more bad news, darling, but check out what's happening with your sweet daughter, Kate, these days. You know, I understand she started smoking. In fact, she's smoking like a chimney these days. I'm sure you're not happy about that, either. So, after you deal with your philandering husband, you'll want to ground your daughter for a couple years! 'Bye." Neither woman spoke. "Thursday, nine fifty-three, p.m.," droned the answering machine. Kate's face slowly turned red. "That goddamn bitch," she exploded in rage. "She pretended to be my friend! I thought she liked me. Boy, was I dumb! She's an absolute ass-hole! Well, fuck her!" Lynne smiled with sympathy at her daughter's outburst. While she watched, Kate immediately reached for her cigarettes and lighter. Her daughter's impetuous reaction seemed completely automatic. The teenager knew what she needed. With trembling hands, she violently thrust a Marlboro Light 100 into her mouth. Without hesitation, she at once flicked her Bic and sucked frantically on the cigarette as she lit up. Lynne smiled again. She recognized something. This wasn't a teenager who was tentatively experimenting with cigarettes. Instead, Kate had the look of a definite smoker as she took consecutive, rapid-fire drags. It was ironic; Kate sought comfort from her smoking habit, the very habit with which Kim had betrayed her. Smoking frenetically calmed Kate somewhat. Lynne walked and put her arm around her. "I'm sorry, Katey," she stated tenderly, as Kate continued smoking wildly. "I know you feel betrayed. But I agree with you on one thing. That woman has proven herself to be a real bitch!" Suddenly and unexpectedly, Kate burst into tears. Sobbing uncontrollably, she fell into her mother's arms. Lynne was both surprised and touched by Kate's obvious desire for comfort from her mother. Gently Lynne guided her into the family room, where the two women sat side by side on the overstuffed couch. "There, there," she whispered soothingly, stroking Kate's hair. "Go ahead and cry, honey. It'll be okay." As Kate bawled, Lynne noticed the ash on her cigarette growing dangerously long. To avoid ashes falling on her sofa, she put her fingers on top of Kate's and gently removed the cigarette from her daughter's hand. The ashtray was right there, on the table beside the couch. Lynne reached out and de-ashed the cigarette, quietly tapping it on the edge of the ashtray. Kate continued sobbing. She'd forgotten the cigarette. Lynne considered crushing it out. But it was far from finished. "No sense wasting it," she thought. She raised the half-smoked cylinder to her own lips, took a long drag, and pulled the smoke into her lungs. For some reason, the non-mentholated cigarette seemed exceptionally pleasant. The taste, flavor and feel of the Marlboro's smoke differed from her Salems. Marlboro Lights 100's were what she "bummed" from Randy in the parking lot of the library earlier. She liked that cigarette, and she liked this one, too. She pursed her lips and exhaled a long stream of smoke. Yeah, she liked these cigarettes, all right. A lot. The smoke lacked the coolness of the menthols. Perhaps because of that, the tobacco flavor seemed stronger. They were good. She returned the cigarette to her lips for a second drag. Kate interrupted her mother. "Mom, you're smoking my cigarette," she whimpered. But now she was smiling. The crying had subsided, but tears continued running down her pretty cheeks. She wiggled her fingers at Lynne and made a face. "Can I have it back?" she pouted with a mock frown. Lynne tipped her head and released a long exhale. "No," she snapped with an evil laugh. But her feigned arrogance showed she was teasing. "Light up another one if you want. But this one's mine. You gave it to me." With her free hand, she poked Kate in the stomach. The women laughed. This exchange broke the gloom, and replaced it with playful kidding. After wiping her tears, Kate reached for her pack and did indeed light up another cigarette. "So, Mom," she sighed, with a freshly lit Marlboro dangling from her lips. "Do you like my cigarettes?" Lynne nodded vigorously. She was busy with another drag. "Yes, I do," she admitted with a grin as she inhaled. She stopped talking 'til her hold was complete. Then she exhaled, and went on. "Stacie suggested I smoke menthols, but God, I prefer these!" She noticed wisps of smoke drift out as she talked. She knew that was a result of the longer holds she'd learned to take from her daughter. "Yeah, I like these, too," Kate admitted. She appeared fully recovered. But it was strange discussing the relative benefits of different brands with her mother. "Weren't you upset by Kim's message, Mom?" she asked. "Do you think Daddy's having an affair with Stacie?" "No," Lynne said firmly. "I'm not sure what Kim saw. But Stacie's my best friend. She'd never do that. Besides, if your father's fooling around with Stacie, why tell me he saw her tonight? No, there's some other explanation. I'm sure we'll hear about it when he gets here." "But aren't you mad at him?" Kate went on. "I mean, Kim confirmed she's been sleeping with him. And he admitted he made plans to leave you. God, Mom, I'd think you'd be pissed." "Watch your language, young lady," Lynne chided, though her smile betrayed lack of concern. "I'm not happy, but I knew he was seeing someone. I guessed it was Kim. See, I want him back. If I didn't, I wouldn't have started this." She raised her almost finished cigarette in the air. "In my heart, I've already forgiven him. As long as he wants to come back, I'll do whatever it takes to keep him." With that, she took a last drag and crushed the cigarette in the ashtray. Kate smiled. "That won't be too hard, assuming Daddy does like you smoking. But don't you think that it's a little weird or something?" "Not at all," Lynne smiled. "Everyone has peculiarities and idiosyncrasies. I can deal with this one. In fact," she admitted, shifting in her seat. "I rather like smoking, too, in a similar way. I mean, of course it feels good to smoke. But it also seems - I don't know - deliciously decadent or something. Whatever. I don't want to quit, whether or not it pleases your father." "I know what you mean," Kate smiled, taking a long drag on her cigarette. Inhaling deeply, she continued talking. "I loved smoking from the start. I know it's not good for me, but I don't care. It makes me feel good." Smoke compounded with her words while she spoke. "And I like how it tastes. I just love doing it. I can't explain it any better than that." "Right," Lynne nodded. She let out a deep sigh. She eyed Kate's pack on the table in front of her. She toyed with the idea of lighting up another one, but decided she should wait. "And I really appreciate you letting me smoke like this, Mom," Kate added, with great sincerity. "I mean, God, here I am, sitting here talking with you, and I'm smoking! Most parents wouldn't be this open-minded. Take Alyssa's mom, for example. Alyssa says she'd be grounded, like forever, if her mom found out she's smoking. But you're so completely cool about it. It's awesome." She leaned over and gave Lynne a quick hug. "You're the best, Mom," she beamed. "I really mean that. Thanks." "You're welcome, honey," Lynne blushed. "I suppose I _should_ be concerned. I mean, after all, smoking is bad for you. Hell, I suppose it's bad for me, too," she smiled wryly. "But, like you, I don't give a damn. I'm just so excited. I love it. It's like I discovered a wonderful new treasure." The combined smell of Kate's cigarette and the excitement of talking about smoking pushed Lynne over the edge. She leaned over to pick up Kate's pack. "Do you mind if I have another one? I don't know why exactly, but I want to keep smoking!" "Of course, Mom," Kate grinned broadly as she puffed again. "How could I object? Go ahead. Be my guest. Have another one. Have as many as you want!" "Be careful when you say that," Lynne chided. She smiled as she removed another Marlboro from her daughter's pack and put it in her mouth. "God, I don't know why I like these better than those Salems," she said apologetically. "But I do!" As Kate watched with a bemused look, her mother lit up again. A rush of pungent smoke filled Lynne's mouth as she pulled hard on the cigarette. "Oh, God," she sighed, after drawing the smoke deep into her expectant lungs. "I never get tired of these things! Do you know what I mean?" "Don't worry, Mom. I know exactly," Kate agreed. She confirmed it by taking a drag of her own and, following her mother's lead, pulling as much smoke as possible into her own chest. Lynne performed a combination nose and mouth exhale. Kate smiled and did likewise, giggling as the smoke encircled her head. "God, Mom, you are _so_ cool," she sighed contentedly. "Smoking with you is, like, even more fun than smoking with Alyssa. I guess it's 'cause you so totally like to smoke." She laughed again. "God, we are terrible, aren't we?" "We sure are," Lynne agreed, as she released a satisfied sigh from deep within. "We sure are," she repeated. She felt so close to Kate right now; much closer than she had for a long time. The family room air was now dense with smoke. The atmosphere was almost opaque. In a strange way, however, it made the room seem friendlier, more intimate. Lynne smiled. "From now on, you and I'll spend lots of time smoking together, honey," she predicted confidently, and then paused for a drag. "Lots of things will change for the better, I think." Before Kate could reply, they heard the front door open. "Oh my God," Kate gasped. "It's Daddy." She rushed to crush her cigarette in the ashtray. Lynne held up her hand. "Whoa! No, don't do that," she decreed, but with a big smile. "It's okay. Let him see you smoking. He won't mind. I'm sure he won't be surprised. I think he expects to see both of us smoking eventually. Why not right now?" She giggled. "To tell you the truth, I predict he'll join us!" Absent-mindedly, she set her cigarette in the ashtray and fixed her hair. Picking it up, she smiled at Kate. "Are you ready? It's Showtime!" ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Stacie and Lynne sat at the same table they had at Jimmy's Deli the day before, nestled smack in the middle of the smoking section. The same waitress, the pretty Jennifer, took drink orders as they settled in. On their way over from the library, Lynne had told Stacie all about smoking with Kate the night before. Stacie was still giggling. Lynne understood her enthusiasm. But her blond friend's delight was so flagrant, it seemed almost inappropriate under the circumstances. "Oh, my God," Stacie sighed. "That's so cool! I can't believe you actually smoked with her last night. That's great!" She gave a knowing smirk. "Trust me, it's every teenage girl's ultimate dream: an understanding mother who won't give her shit for wanting to smoke." Lynne smiled contentedly. "Yeah, I'm sure that's true. God, it is fun smoking with Kate. I suppose I should've been upset she's smoking. But you know? I'm not. I suppose it's 'cause I understand why she likes it so damn much." She put her napkin on her lap. "I'm not kidding, Stacie, I am completely converted. I like smoking more with each passing minute." She giggled and opened her purse. "In fact, I'm ready for a smoke right now. And wait 'til I tell you what happened when Tom came home." As she spoke, she pulled her cigarettes form her bag. Stacie whistled as Lynne put her cigarettes on the table. "Whoa," she said dryly. "Those are Marlboro Lights 100's! What happened to the Salems?" "Oh," Lynne replied absent-mindedly, tapping the pack and removing a cigarette. "It's Kate's brand. I smoked of hers some last night, and decided I like 'em better." She gave an embarrassed grin as she put one in her mouth. "Sorry," she said sheepishly, firing up her lighter. "Girl, I don't care what you smoke," Stacie replied sarcastically, her eyes twinkling. "I'm just glad you haven't decided to abandon me and quit." She eyeballed Lynne's introductory drag. "Obviously, you're not quitting," she kidded. Lynne's hard, vigorous pull on the freshly lit cigarette made that point abundantly clear. "I'm just surprised you changed brands so fast, that's all." Stacie licked her lips in anticipation. From her burgundy cigarette case, she removed a Salem, depositing it between her moist lips. She clicked her lighter and lit up. The same satisfaction Lynne experienced was immediately shared by Stacie. The smoke tasted good! Lynne was in the midst of a second, much longer drag. Using Kate's technique, she deeply inhaled and held the smoke inside for a five count. She smiled while she waited to exhale. Stacie's jaw dropped. "Oh, my God," Stacie gasped when Lynne finally exhaled a thin stream of smoke. "Your approach has matured, dear, to say the least. Since when have you been smoking like that?" "Since last night. Kate showed me how," she proclaimed proudly. Contentedly she held her cigarette beside her face. Smoke drifted from her nostrils over the next several breaths. "It's more fun if you inhale real deep. Don't you think?" "Yeah, sure," she smiled. Stacie recognized the transformation happening before her eyes. She'd seen it before, in her college days, with other new smokers. The familiar pattern was always the same: Suddenly they became preoccupied with smoking. In fact, they wanted to light up constantly. They took longer drags, and deeper inhales. Yes, Lynne was certainly progressing according to schedule. She'd be hooked in no time. In fact, Stacie knew, Lynne was probably hooked already. It was so predictable. She sighed. There was no stopping the inevitable progression now. But none of this surprised Stacie. Actually, she'd sort of expected it, given Lynne's initial positive attitude. Not surprisingly, however, at that moment Lynne's obvious neophyte excitement exactly mirrored Stacie's own feeling of exhilaration about smoking. Stacie took a somewhat longer than normal drag of her own and smiled broadly at her friend as she inhaled. "Okay," she proclaimed, holding the smoke inside. "Tell me about it." Lynne grinned. "Sure," she sighed. She told her the whole tale, about smoking in the dark on the porch early in the evening, discovering Kate's cigarettes, smoking in front of Kate when she came home, and finally the two of them smoking together. "I don't know who was happier," she said contentedly, "Kate or me. But we had a ball smoking together." At that point, the waitress brought their drinks. "Excuse me," Jennifer said as she put down Stacie's coffee and Lynne's Diet Coke. "I didn't mean to eavesdrop. But did you say you found out your daughter smokes and you actually gave her permission to keep on smoking?" Lynne smiled. "That's right. Do you think that's bad?" "God, no," Jennifer exclaimed. "I think it's great. Boy, I wish you'd talk to _my_ mother." She sighed. "My mom nags about my smoking all the time." She smiled at Lynne. "Believe me. Your daughter doesn't know how lucky she is." They gave Jennifer their orders, and Stacie asked for the rest of the story. "You said Tom came home last night," she said eagerly. "Tell me what happened." "Okay," Lynne replied. First she told Stacie of the strange call from Tom and the two messages on her machine. "What happened?" she asked. "Did you meet with Tom last night?" "Yeah," Stacie admitted nervously. "But it's not what you think, Lynne. I didn't intend for Tom to see me smoke. He arrived early and caught me. Well, I explained how much you love him and how you're willing to do anything - including smoke for him - to get him to stop seeing Kim. Then he asked me about Bill and me, and I ... well, I just sort of lost it." "Lost it?" Lynne repeated. "Yeah," she sighed, grabbing another cigarette from her burgundy case. "I started crying about losing Bill and shit like that. Then Tom put his arm around me - you know, just to comfort me - and I ... well, I sort of kissed him." "Sort of?" "Okay, I kissed him," Stacie admitted, as she lit up a second Salem. "It was too tempting. I don't know why. I mean, I was smoking, and he was smoking, and his big strong arms were wrapped around me. I can't explain it. I guess it was instinctive. But it was over in a second. It wasn't his fault, Lynne. It was mine. I never intended to hurt you or anything." "I know," Lynne said reassuringly. She, too, impulsively put another cigarette in her mouth and lit up again. "That's pretty much the story Tom told me," she added, with the cigarette dangling from her lips. "I believe you." "Thanks," Stacie breathed a sigh of relief. "Believe me, it meant nothing. So, what happened when Tom got home?" She was eager to change the subject. Lynne was pleased to tell the tale. "Well, he walked into the family room. Kate and I were just sitting there, but we were both smoking away. The look of absolute amazement on Tom's face was priceless! I mean, I think he half-expected to see me smoking, 'cause you tipped him off." She gave a mischievous grin. "But he was dumbfounded Kate and I were both smoking, and smoking together, too. I explained what'd happened. He just sat down beside me on the couch in total disbelief. But I could tell he wasn't unhappy. Not in the least." "So he wasn't upset about Kate?" "No. He admitted later in the evening that from the very beginning he knew all about Kim's little plan to get Kate hooked on cigarettes, too. So Tom knew Kate was smoking. Kim had reported Kate's progress to him on a daily basis. He'd even spied on her on Tuesday night, unbeknownst to Kate. I think it pissed Kate off just a little. But she was so happy to have her father's blessing, I don't think she really cared." "So, then what happened?" Stacie asked eagerly. Lynne made her wait, first taking another long drag on her Marlboro. "I asked if he wanted to join us," she smirked, sucking the smoke inside while continuing to talk. "It was so funny. He was so excited! His hands literally shook as he got his Marlboro 100's from his jacket pocket. I held the lighter for him and lit him up. As we all smoked together, I explained to him that I liked smoking, a lot more than I ever expected. I told him I would keep on smoking whether he decided to stay with me or not. I said I also thought it would be unfairly sanctimonious of us not to let Kate smoke, too. After all, it wasn't her fault Kim tricked her. He also confirmed, by the way, that Kim's scheme was to get Kate hooked so she'd live with the two of them, instead of with me, after we broke up." She smiled. "But Kim's plan backfired. The three of us really bonded last night. Except for the cigarettes, it was truly a Hallmark moment." "Wow, that's cool," Stacie beamed. She asked the big question. "So, is Tom going to dump Kim? Is he going to stay with you?" "Going back to Kim isn't much of an option," Lynne said smugly. "She over-played her hand last night. Tom was pissed. Regardless of his original feelings, I don't think he'll fall for her sweet line any longer now that he knows she ratted on him. I think she was after his money the whole time. He doesn't need to fall into her bed to have a smoking woman of his very own. I showed him that definitively last night." "The details, girlfriend," Stacie giggled. "Give me the details." "Okay. We had one more cigarette with Kate. Then Tom and I went to our room, and Kate went to hers. Well, I'd been flirting with him; you know, trying to look sexy when I smoked, generally acting seductive. He picked right up on it. As soon as we hit our room, he started pulling my clothes off. We had great sex." She paused. "For the first time in years, we made love twice in one night. I shouldn't tell you, but the second time, he wanted me on top, and I smoked for him while we fucked. God, it was great! It made me so hot, having a cigarette in my mouth and sucking smoke into my lungs while we did it." Stacie bubbled with excitement. "God, Lynne, that's unbelievable. You're so lucky!" She took a drag and assumed a more somber air. "But I should tell you a few other things Tom said last night. He thinks you're too cold and calculating, too analytical. Did he tell you that?" "Yeah," Lynne smiled, exhaling a cloud of smoke. "He's right, too. I said I'll try not to be so logical. I want to be more like you, Stacie. You know? I want to be someone who just enjoys the moment, without analyzing everything to death. It drives Tom crazy. I know." "What about your hair? Did you talk about that?" "No," Lynne admitted. "What about my hair? "Okay." Stacie took a deep breath. "Tom said one of the things that attracted him to Kim, in addition to her smoking, was her blond hair. He's decided he has a thing for blonds. Have you ever thought about coloring your hair?" Lynne frowned. "I don't have the skin color for it, Stacie," she grimaced. "I couldn't be a blond if I wanted. Do you think it's really important?" "Who knows? But why find out the hard way?" Putting her cigarette between her lips, Stacie quickly rummaged through her purse. "Here it is. Call my beautician. If anyone can change you into a blond, she can." She handed Lynne a card. "Her name's Maya Wilson. She's Hawaiian, and works at a shop downtown. She's amazing. She re-made my image a year ago." "I remember," Lynne agreed. "It was when you lightened your hair." "Right. That's Maya! So, make an appointment. Tell Maya you need a new identity. Tell her you have to be a blond. You're right about one thing. You're too dark for real yellowish blond hair like mine. But I bet Maya will find you a darker shade of blond that works with your complexion. Trust me. It's worth it. If it was important enough for Tom to mention, you should do something about your hair. Besides, getting your hair done is always fun. Don't you think?" "I guess," Lynne mumbled. The idea of turning blond wasn't appealing. But Stacie was right. She'd said she'd do anything to keep Tom happy. She puffed nervously on her cigarette. Smoking didn't turn out bad. Maybe changing hair color would be easier than she feared. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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